Reflection: This past Sunday made me think about the worst and best day of my life. I have been broken down to the point where I could do nothing but fall on my knees and cry for help (can recall this exact day). Now looking back, that moment and downward spiral was how I have come to know a new life. Two years later, I am appreciative that my life and all I had known was so broken and so destructive. I have wanted for so long to understand what people mean by a “new life.” And here it is! I have experienced it and it is a rebirth. I am at peace and I do not fear for the future

Today: Such good news!
Dr. B has been so good to me. I am co-authored on another publication and I have been nominated as UCI’s student researcher of the month :) I think it will be for either May or June !
Thinking back to that day, when I hit rock bottom, I do believe that was the best day of my life (so far). C:


My heart is so heavy. my dear, dear friend…i wish i could have maybe— just perhaps in some small way — been a larger sphere of influence..perhaps you would still be here with us today. I did not hug you enough times or tell you how much I value you enough.. in my own foolishness I had set off without you. I miss your bizarre faces and your natural lightness, even in times of heavy secrets and abuse. I ran into a roll of photos you took of me summers ago…how much glowing happiness and innocence. It was you, the person behind the camera. The source of it all. It hurts so much to look at these smiling photos now without you. I pray and pray that you are in peace…and I beg God that you have found your way to heaven


Here is a partial explanation of how God takes care of all the past failures and the shame of our lives, in order to produce someone who is holy and blameless. It is by means of a change of family relationship. “He destined us to be sons,” or, literally, he “foreordained us to sonship standing,” or, as the Authorized Version puts it, to “adoption” as sons. We are familiar with the process of adoption. Adoption means leaving one family and joining another, leaving behind all that was involved in the first family and assuming the name, the characteristics, the resources, the history of another family. And this is the way Paul describes this relationship. We all belong initially to the family of Adam. We leave it, in Christ, and, thereafter, we belong to a new family, the family of Jesus Christ. We are no longer part of the family of Adam. Now that doesn’t mean that we are not human; it means that we no longer need to be possessed by fallen Adamic characteristics. We are still exposed to temptations to believe in them and to act that way, but we don’t have to — that’s the point. We’ve been transferred into a new family.

He destined us in love to be his sons through Jesus Christ, according to the purpose of his will, to the praise of his glorious grace which he freely bestowed on us in the Beloved. {Eph 1:5-6 RSV}”

Thanks Dad, that was beautifully put

11-20-12 shift 3.


I am going to start noting my experiencs because they are unique to me.

Patient A: in for drug abuse. Heroin addict. Extreme pain, NPO. No water no food. Abscess in arm and lower back. Screamed the entire morning. Could not comprehend what she was saying.

Patient B: Do not resuscitate. Near end…

Patient B, i felt it

You’re allowed to scream, you’re allowed to cry, but do not give up.

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This is where my time disappears 

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long legged ppl

Excited to have Norman Reedus on the show tonight!

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